honestly how i feel right now.
i’m in the worst position, the toughest. I honestly hate the situation i’m in. I never thought i would be here again.
i’ve tried everything i possibly could, but i can’t be that deep in the same situation again. i know that the effort is one sided. maybe they do care but i cannot do this anymore. it hurts me too much. i’ve cried because i’m broken from this stress.
the anxiety’s been going on too long. i can’t afford to think about what HE thinks versus what i NEED to do for myself. like, no one gets how i feel or the inner torment i go through everyday. i don’t want this to be on my call, but i know he wouldn’t choose anything different.
i just……i don’t even know anymore.